emotional breakdown, somebody help me breathe.
2004-03-08 9:19 a.m.

have you ever just, not wanted to breathe? and i don't mean, to die, but to stop breathing all together. to be able to actually not have to use any of your muscles. so that maybe, if you stop breathig, then they might notice. and they might get scared for you.

but you could look fine on the outside. you could talk, and move around, even smile.

but to not breathe. that would be something, wouldn't it?

but that's how i feel. i can sit here and type, without breathing. i can look my mom in the face and smile my best smile, but i'm not breathing. and i can tell her that i love the fact that she's finally getting married, but my heart is completely still. i can breakdown and cry right in front of you, and the blood in my vains wouldn't flow.

listening - nickelback, breathe

feeling - uuuhhhhh

wanting - to get out of this place

Blood In&Blood Out